When you feel you have lost everything, you still have
- unexpected kindness in strangers
- the rest of the world to travel
- languages to learn
- animals to take care of
- volunteer work to do
- the power of a good night’s rest
- the changing of seasons
- infinite things to learn
- billions of people to meet and possibly love
- billions of people who might love you back
Needed this today
I’ve fallen so hard for you, but feeling like you don’t feel the same way is just enough for me to give up
your early 20s are certainly not for caring.
I’ve been told that I’m a difficult person to read, which is kind of strange to me but i can see where they’re coming from. I feel like I lay everything out on the table and that I’m very clear with how I feel half the time but I guess I’m not.
When I put myself in someone elses shoes and look at myself, I’d describe myself as: someone who doesn’t care, who thinks everyone is dumb, coldhearted but caring, quiet, doesn’t want to talk about anything or let anyone in, doesn’t need love because she thinks it’s dumb and doesn’t exist.
It’s kind of funny how that works..because all I want is to have someone to talk to, someone to know that I need extra love because I’m always insecure and sad. I don’t always think love is dumb. i like to believe in fairy tales and believe in true love and that everyone has a soul mate. I can be coldhearted, but I also want the best for everyone..which is mostly why I stay away from people. I know I emit bad vibes sometimes, and I just want everyone to have good vibes so when I’m having a bad day..it’s best I just stay away. i want someone to understand all that. there’s so much more..but i hate giving it all away.
As much as I want someone to understand me, I’m craving to understand someone just as bad.
I’m weird and heartless..
So far this spring break I have successfully: Bought a dress, got my eyes checked for glasses, re-colored my hair, helped my mom with the bathroom, watched 7 episodes of House of Cards, worked out, and made a complete fool out of myself 13342504958349 times….what else can I do?