I didn’t think that saying goodbye to you would happen via text. But it just makes me realize that maybe you didn’t care about our friendship as much as I did.

But maybe you do. I just wish I got to say goodbye to you since I won’t be seeing you until next February. We’ve become really good friends, and not having you around kind of hurts. I loved spending nights with you and waking up to you. I loved telling you personal things, and hearing you tell me all about fitness and being healthy. Being around you comforts me and puts me at ease.

You’re a marvelous person, and I wish you’d see that.  I’m sorry I might have bruised our friendship. I’m just afraid of never seeing you again..

neck kissing is really fucking hot though

(Source: ppowermuffgirls, via apyi-isfornoobs)

Made Principal of Concert band after being at the very bottom Freshman year. I had some awesome roommates this year. We went out a lot in the beginning. Bought a Betta Fish with my roommate. His name is Lorenzo. Dressed up as Pocahontas and went out to Cornell for the first time. Dressed up as a Sailor for halloween and went to a jewish Frat the next night. Had some really big ups and downs with friendships. One in particular. Ben&Jerrys night. I was still a Music Education Major. Felt lost in life and very unsure. I made some awesome new friends. Learned how to play the Tuba and Saxophone. Didn’t get to witness my sister getting married….BUT SHE GOT MARRIED. I now have In-laws. Walked all the way from town back up to campus. Got to play 3 Frank Ticheli pieces while being conducted by Frank Ticheli himself. Went on my first real date. Went to a Rugby banquet. Dressed up all fancy and went out for dinner with my roommates. Studied with Emily DiAngelo the Fall 2012 semester. Double Reed Day 2012! Took a real biology class…. (never again..) Sang in the Chorus when ICSO played Ravel’s Daphnis et Chloe. Had some weird virus or stomach bug…blech. FORD FEST, DOUBLE REED STYLE. Did the Mean Girls Jingle Bell Rock skit at Ford fest 2012. Survived the end of the world 12/21/12 while watching Mean Girls.. Did a double jury to audition for the B.M. Performance Degree. STRESSED SO HARD FOR THAT. Spent New Years  with my bestfriends. Got too drunk to function. Got accepted to the B.M. Performance program at Ithaca! Woke up to a horrifying text the first day of classes Spring semester finding out that my friend Mike had passed away. RIP Mike, you’re always on my mind. Became close with a friend. Went sledding in Ithaca for the first time! Had a long talk about changing majors and what we want to do in life at late night with my moms. Recital drama. Celebrated Valentines day pigging out in my room with my roommates and also received an anonymous single red rose. Saw WeBe3!! Saw my friend Devin for the first time in a year! Became active again and started going to the gym 4-5 times a week and still going. Went to Wafflefrolic and the Carriage House for the first time. Got a job at school!! Saw my bestfriend’s fashion show. She’s head stylist and I’m very proud of her. More ups and downs with friendships..still one in particular. Saw Streetlight Manifesto. Hell. Yeah. Gospel Fest 2013. Blaze. Got to meet and play with Carol Jantsch, Principal Tuba of the Philadelphia Orchestra. Roommates. Went to a hi-fashion party with an interesting turn of events. Boys. Became a little more confident as a performer and with my playing. I turned 20 and got to celebrate it with the best people ever. YOLO night. Sang in the Chorus of Beethoven’s Symphony No. 9. FREUDE. And my parents got to come up to see it!! Fell in love with music all over again. IC kicks back 2013. enjoyed some beautiful weather the last 2 weeks of school. Oboe studio Party 2013=great success. Played Cards Against Humanity with my Professor and her husband. We’re all such vulgar people. Went to one of Cornell’s libraries for the first time. Biddie nights. Cried and laughed. Made weird noises…. ? Really found myself..but I know I’m bound to get lost again. Stairwell talks. Finished Sight Singing FOREVER. This year was one to remember. 

After a long year at school, I survived and made it back home. My room is a completely different room now. It’s so cozy, and I love it. My parents are truly amazing people for doing this for me.

I’ll admit I’m pretty excited for this summer…well…just the few things that I have planned. Right now I’m focused on..some errands I have to do, practicing, and EDC this Saturday! eeep! I’m so excited. I still need to figure out what to wear. 

School has drained me out. My energy is gone, but my excitement for whats to come and my happiness from my friends and parents are whats keeping me going right now. Right now, I’m feeling lucky and so thankful for what I have..despite the minor bad things.